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Ingrid Michaelson // We Found Love [Rihanna cover]
(Source: mrgolightly)
"There is no point treating a depressed person as though she were just feeling sad, saying, ‘There now, hang on, you’ll get over it.’ Sadness is more or less like a head cold- with patience, it passes. Depression is like cancer."
― Barbara Kingsolver, The Bean Trees
― Barbara Kingsolver, The Bean Trees
"The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling."
― David Foster Wallace
― David Foster Wallace
Breathe. Just breathe, right?
Should be easy. I’ve done this so many times. When I panic or feel like hurting myself or having an anxiety attack, just sit down and focus on your breathing. Probably the most useful thing I’ve learned from years of therapy.
Then why is it not working now? Why is…
I wonder what it would be like if I broke down. I mean, really broke down. Collapsed into someone’s arms, sobbing my heart out, struggling to take in enough air to breathe properly.. the works, basically. It’s such a crazy thought to me that I can’t even imagine doing this. Don’t get me wrong, I’d…
